“so..He’s not your..”
“Not… he isn’t my boyfriend, or crush or sorts of that, he is pure-plainly good friend of mine…” I cut him before he could finish his thought. Stupid boy!
“That’s a good thing then…or else..” he mumbles him self.
“What thing?” I ask him, coz I didn’t really catch his mumble earlier.
---two hours++ ago---
“Stupid.stupid.stupid kwon jiyong!!!” I cursed him as I stomp my way to my next class.
Who is stupider that him? I mean, I gave the whole green signal for him, note that, WHOLE GREEN SIGNAL. Means that, I like, oh no, scratch that, I fall for him. Duh!
We started dating like decades ago but he never asked me for being his GF, I mean we’re together for all that time, but I still don’t know his feeling towards me, or at least what am I to him. Sigh. It’s okay for me if he just finds me as his good friend, at least I know my position, eeeekkk.. Who am I trying to lie to? Well, if he tells me that I am JUST a friend for him, I bet a penny that I’ll be brawling here and there in my room, kicking away all the things he gave for me during our so-called-date.
Yes, we did have our kisses, but…what so special about a peck or two in your side of lips? Sigh. Sometimes I hope he’d be more aggressive, that I found my self in my pervert mode. At least he has to pick our first convo, rite? But, yeah… our past so-called-dates always ended-up with having my blabbering non-stop mode on for the whole day. That’s it; from now on I’ll be a dead silent walking zombie while dating with him; that was what I determine to do from our third so-called-date. And, our last date was… wait, lost count. Twenty? I think, oh scratch that, if our meeting in Hyundai mall that ended with him strolling along with me till midnite included, and make it twenty-one. Wait. I don’t know exactly all I know is, we’ve been like ‘that’ since 4 and a half months ago.
AND WE’RE STILL, NOT A COUPLE
And just 10 minutes ago, he asked me to date again. Well, I don’t even know what’s ‘that’ supposed to call! It’s not a date, considering our status of stupid relationship, but it’s also not just a ’going out’ because I use that terms for friends. Like, I will be going out with Dae Hee, my bff. Or I’m going out with Solbi Onnie, my closest sunbae, just because she used to date my cousin. But we’re still a good friend, we even have our nickname, Ambi *A/N:reminds you of something?? :P*. Amelie & Solbi. Yeah, you heard it right, my name is Amelie, Lee Amelie, don’t laugh! That’s not my Korean name, my Korean name is Lee Hyori, ppppssstt, in my dream. Hahaha. I will never tell you my real Korean name, pbbbtthh! No seriously, my Korean name sounds so, mmm, unique? Blame my halmoni for giving me that weird name!
Wait, aren’t we supposed to talk about Jiyong? Oh, yeah, sorry for that.
So, that’s that. He just went “I’ll pick you up after school okay?” and run his hand over my hair, made them messy. But I love the way he run his hand- oh, that should be called ‘pat’. I love the way he pat my head. I felt so comfortable, secure, and protected at the same time. Actually I felt another thing along side with all those feeling, but I’m not sure yet, I felt bein loved.
Sigh.
‘do I have to confess first?
Uh? Bad idea. What if these scenes happened?
Scene 1
A: Jiyong oppa.. will you be my boy friend?
J: what? Hahahahahaha!!! What did you say? Hahahahahahaha!!
And for the rest of the day he’ll laugh his head off thinking that I am the weirdest girl asking him to be her boy friend.
Scene 2
A: Jiyong oppa.. I L.O.V.E you, will you be my BF?
J: *shocked* but, Amelie yah.. you’re just a best friend of mine, how could we be a couple. I’m sorry…
And than he pats my head.
Scene 3
A: Jiyong oppa, we’re going out for the whole time now, do you think what I think?
J: what?
A: Who I am for you?
J: huh? What kind of question is that? Isn’t it obvious? You’re..
A: *praying* please say GF, GF, GF,
J: my favorite dongsaeng ofcourse!
*thud sound*
I shook out my head, that scenes just HORRIBLE. I don’t want ended up with him laughing my face, or patting my head for pity, or the worst of all, having him thought me as his dongsaeng. NOPE!
I’ll wait then. Until whenever, oh no, what if I stuck there with Jiyong oppa for 10 more years from now? I’ll be 29 and have no boyfriend, actual and official boyfriend. GAH!!!
I closed my eyes tightly to get those think rid, just before I want to open my eyes, I felt a flesh wall hit my forehead, well that’s so explicit. I just bump someone, someone obviously taller than me, cuz when my eyes fully opened; I saw his neck and his chin in my forehead. DAM.N IT’S HURT.
“Ahhh…” I rubbed my fore head.
“Don’t shut your eyes while walking, stupid” a deep voice sounded familiar.
“oh… seung hyun ah.. mianhae..” I bumped Seung Hyun, a tall, hot, pretty eyed boy who’s my partner in biology, chemist, and cooking class. I swear to you, that’s 100% coincidence.
“Oppa! I’m definitely older than you!” still. A demanded tall, hot, pretty eyed boy, who’s my new friend recently.
“You’re in the same grade as me… I don’t call a same grader oppa…” well actually Seung Hyun was my sunbae. But something happened and he skipped a year. He supposed to be in the same grade as Jiyong oppa. I bet you a dollar that he wasn’t failed an exam or so, he’s totally smart. How do I know? He’s my biology, chemist, and cooking partner, remember? He even knew a trick to make your cookies crunchier. I’m not joking! He put that, - wait.. you want me to tell you the secret ingredient, don’t you? And you’ll bet me in cookies cooking contest next month. Well, keep dreaming! I won’t tell you. Coz I have to win that contest so I can buy a new Cyon Lollipop with the prize, and I’ll have couple cell phone with Jiyong oppa, muahahahaha.. wait, duh! What a pathetic way to claim Jiyong oppa as my other half, with a… couple cell phones. Sigh. This thing is way over me now.
Off topic, once again. Duh!
“it’s not my fault. It wasn’t me who dragged the whole family to Miami just to attending his sister’s wedding, in final exam season!” [spoiler]he refers that to his father, FYI.-A/N[/spoiler] ha! Gimme a dollar!
“okay, whatever. But I will never call you oppa! Meeeehh rong!!” I stuck my tongue to him and made my escape that is useless, coz he will be my partner after this, in cooking class.
We made our way to the cooking class with lots of story exchanged. It’ so nice talking to him, he always clicked wherever the convo’ll go. From the theory of Bigbang to the existence of ghosts.
We’re finally there, not that the class is soo far that we just get there after 10 minutes. But we had to stop by every time girls trying to seduce flirt him. He’s fine after all, scratch that, he’s h.o.t. Wait, why do I feel like betraying Jiyong oppa suddenly?
Oh, well. We’re not a couple after all. Sigh. Why is everything so depressing recently?
Our project today was muffins. Yey!! Let jus say that muffins are my department. Kkkkk.
“we’ll definitely win today!” I whispered Seung Hyun. The most interesting of this class is, we always have a little contest for the best food of the day. I never won before. Coz I’m sucks at making bolognaise, terrible at making soups, and senseless at making steak, the steak ended up in the trash bin, because no one would able to eat that up without dislocating their jaws.
“Seriously? Do you know how to make muffins?” he asked with disbelieve tone.
“Muffins a.k.a simplest thing ever in my dict!” I’m not smugging my self, I’m not! Oke I am! Muhahaha.
“really?? why do I fell so insecure suddenly..” he whimpered out. I just rolled my eyes.
“gimme that choco chips, and the blueberry over there, not that one, that’s strawberry, smarty!” I started giving him instruction; he’s not helping at all but grabbing things that we need. Did I tell you that he’s the only boy here? Because he’s so smart, he once placed in the accelerated class, where everything was...accelerated. well, basically accelerated class is a program for those who is smart enough to endure 3 years of education that compacted into 2 years terms. The subject is harder, no doubt of that. So, actually Seung Hyun had taken almost all the subject for 2nd year student in his first year of accelerated program. But because someone dragged him to Miami, he had to leave his accelerated program, and join the regular. So, here he is, in cooking class, the only subject left for this semester to choose that he FOUND interesting, seriously.
“I know that, I was joking, boring you!” he snapped.
Our [url=http://www.joyofbaking.com/muffins/BlueberryBranMuffins.html]blueberry[/url] and [url=http://www.joyofbaking.com/muffins/ChocolateChipMuffins.html]chocolate chips[/url] muffins are almost done, no, we’re not mixing blueberry and chocolate chips together, I decided to split the dough 50:50 because Jiyong oppa loves blueberry muffins, while Seung Hyun pleaded to make chocolate chips ones. But, hey.. I think that’s a good idea, mixing blueberry and chocolate, I think that would be yummy, I’ll try to make one later.
I threw a glance to Seung Hyun who seems to be bored, he finally found that the cooking class IS not that interesting, not to mention that bunch of stupid girls staring at him all the time. Poor friend of mine.
“gotcha!!” I poked his left cheek.
“What the…” he brushed his cheek and found a stain of the remaining muffins dough there. He looked at me furiously, I gave him a V sign and showed him my best smile.
“take this!!” he smeared my nose with blueberry paste, where did he get that blueberry paste anyway?
“yah!!” I yelled.
“meeehrrooong!!” he stuck out his tongue. Just before I I raised my hand to wipe the paste, I heard a click of camera, he pict-snapped me with his phone.
“yah!! Erase that!” I tried to reach out his phone.
“muahahahaha, grow taller miss!!” he stretch his arm as height as he can.
“yah!” I took another dough with index finger and smeared it to his cheek, just like before. “muahaha.…”
“yah!” he yelled again. Thanks god the teacher is outside, or we’ll be kicked out her class before our muffins done.
He was about wiping the dough when I grab his hand for doing so, “Don’t erase it, let’s take a pict!” I came closer to him with my self cam wh.ore mode on. We made a ridiculous faces and every stupid faces we could make.
“muahahahaha, this one is cute, send it to me” he said when we’re checking the result.
“Turn your Bluetooth on” and I started to send him the photos, yes, I decided to send him all the photos we took.
“You know what? You’re quite photogenic… ” said Seung Hyun while his eyes still fixed on his phone.
Hhhmmm, how would I respond to that? Photogenic means I am good looking in front of camera, isn’t that mean that I’m not that good looking real life? What was he tried to imply? Was he praise me? Or simply mock me rite in my face?
“What?” he finally took his eyes off his phone screen, shifting his attention to the person who was staring him with all her thought, that person is, me.
“eng?” why do I sound so dumbfounded.
“forget it, hey, the muffin are done!” he is about to take a step closer to the oven when I caught a glimpse of his phone screen.
He put our pict as his wallpaper.
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He put our pict as his wallpaper. I saw it clearly. It has my -tongue sticking while my nose scrunches- face and Seung Hyun’s with his lips pouting. I saw it clearly.
Is he..
“Amelie yah!! Look at these! They are perfect!” he skipped his way from the oven back to our table.
What if he..
“Yah.. Smell it, hmmmm… why are you so good with muffin, these all seems so yummy..Oww! hot!” he dropped the muffin that he wanted to eat.
“Gwaenchana??!!” I asked him worriedly.
He smiled mischievously, “There, I got your fully attention again, are you dozing out??”
I can’t help but smiled. “Are you okay?” I asked him once again.
“Naaah… it was nothing, are you okay? You seem like you had just saw ghost, I told you they are exist!” he placed his hands on my shoulders.
“aaa.. I’m okay, okay..” why did I shuttering just now?
“Really? Why are you shuttering just now??” was he bein a detective or something?
“Ahaha.haha.hahaha.” I laugh out an awkward laugh.
His eyes narrowed, why did the AC not working so sudden? Oh, they’re working properly, just my face that reddened.
“okay then… “ he blinked his pretty eyes twice and finally shifted his eyes on to other thing, ”hey, lets serve this to sonsaengnim…” he pointed the fallen muffin.
“Oh? No we can’t! it’s already fallen!” ouh thanks god the AC worked again.
“she didn’t notice it, gwaenchana…” he placed the muffin in the scoring plate.
“Don’t~” I snatched it back. You’re not supposed to give your teacher a fallen muffin, rite? That’s rude!
“It’s okay! It just dropped on the table; it has no dirt at all!!” he snatched the muffin again.
“NO! she might have diarrhea after this!” I snatched it again-again.
“Aish!! It was just drop there! Not in the dirt or something!” once again, the muffin is in his hand.
“Andwe!” thanks god the teacher still not inside, she had this habit: giving instruction, leave the class, check the class once or twice every a while, and back to the class when she thinks she has to.
“Aish! Jinjja!!” he grabbed my hands that holding the muffin tightly.
The situation became awkward; our eyes gazed at each others’.
Damn! The AC didn’t work again.
Ottoke?
I gulped my saliva, this is not happening, I have jiyong oppa, and I have no feeling at all towards this guy.
But.. am i?
Or I just got biased?
i…i..don’t… what the he.ll is he doing? Why is his face came closer??
“Lolli lolli lollipop, oh I’m your lollipop”
Saved by the phone… fyuuuhhh..
“oh, mian…” Seung Hyun released my hands, he gave me a mischievous smirk, “The prince is calling~~” he teased with sing song voice.
No, you wrong Seung Hyun, Jiyong oppa just text me..
“Amelie yah~~ something came up.. I’ll be late there, don’t go home yet, I’ll walk you home, wait me in the park~~ xxx”
“Late…” I murmured my self, while dozing off.
“Who? Your prince?” he gave me another mischievous smile.
“Oh? Eeeng… let’s jut prepare the scoring plate. Which one we’re gonna put there? The chocolate chips or the blueberry one?” I tried to change the topic.
“uh? Uum.. well.. I want to keep the chocolate chip just for me, lets sacrifice the blueberry..” he said unsure.
“but I want to give this blueberry muffins to Jiyong oppa…” I glanced over him, is it me or just my eyes saw wrongly? His face is kinda,,,dropped.
“Kre?? Ehhmm…but this chocochips seem have fallin in love with me… look it’s fit my hands perfectly..” he held the muffin cutely.
Sigh.. “okay than… serve this to sonsaengnim…” I shoved the plate with the muffin which was fallen earlier.
“You’re the best!!” he accepted the plate happily and pated my head.
Once again, the AC was not working…
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“Kim Soo Jin and Son Sung Hee… you need to put sugar in the dough, not salt!” sonsaengnim gave a C for that team, seriously, those girls was not able to see the difference between sugar and salt?? Oh, them. I know them, they’re the ones who stared Seung Hyun and I for the longest time since I and Seung Hyun entered the class. It’s not a surprise then.
“Kang Won Hee and Jung Ah Soo… you have to learn the rite way to put the ingredients orderly or your muffin taste like sands..” uh? Their muffins taste like sands?
“the other are fine… fine enough to eat I mean.” This teacher is actually a 4d person, isn’t she??
“well.. I have bad news and good news for you guys… the good news is, I wont put today score’s to the report book..” the class cheered, I think they know exactly that their muffins are horrible.
“the bad news is… I have nothing for the prize for the winner today…” the class went huuuuuuuu… “but.. I promise this for the next report..” she said playfully as her index fingers mate + sign. “And I have this little thing… for the winner” she pulled out a beautiful small laces made bag, a perfect small bag for the muffins. “so the winner can put the muffins here, so the winners today is…..”
Play the drum here…
“Choi Seung Hyun and Lee #$%*!@*&%” you don’t think that I would tell you my Korean name, don’t you?? Muahahahha.
I felt someone nudged my side with his elbow.
“Yah! We win!!” he cheered childishly.
“oh, yeahhh..” I joined him cheering, and step forward to receive the prize. “Kamsahamnida sonsaengnim..” I bowed her.
“Your muffin would be tastier of you didn’t drop it though..” she smiled sneakily.
Ouh! Caught! Stupid Seung Hyun!
“eehheehhee… mianhamnida sonsaengnim, Seung Hyun was..”
“Gwaenchana…” I told you she’s 4d.
I walked back to our table where Seung Hyun busied his self playing with my cell phone.
Wait. What?
MY CELL PHONE??? HOW DARE HIM!!
“YAH!!” I grabbed my cellphone away from him; I noticed that he was checking my images folder. “You’re not supposed to play with my cellphone without my permission! Haven’t you heard the word privacy? ” I blurted out angrily.
He pouted his lips, “If I asked first, will you sent your pict for me?”
“Ha??” was I heard it wrong?
“hhhmm.. I just notice that with that small lips, pointy nose and V line jaw made you rrr, good looking?”
MY GODNESS! He.. Choi Seung Hyun.. the accelerated program hottie..just call me good looking.. i.am.not.dreaming.rite? it’s not that I like him or what, but…it’s a normal reaction when someone LIKE Seung Hyun called you good looking, rite? Or is it? Jiyong oppa, did I just betraying you? Eh? Are we even a couple?? D’oh! Why I everything become complicated?
One thing that I know exactly rite know.
I have to know what Seung Hyun really thinks about me. Not that I like him back or so,
eh,
is he EVEN like me??
D’oh!
Narcissism mode on!
Just.. just.. well I cant stand the guilty feeling of ‘dump someone away’..
Do you get what I mean?
I’ll tell you one story of my life..
Once upon a time, in my last year of Junior High to be exact, there is a boy named Kang Dae Sung. A cute boy with mesmerizing smile. We were in a same class back then. He is the funniest guy in our class, well in other word, he is our joker. He never failed cheer the class up, even in the gloomiest day ever. He brought us both of laughter and the meaning of friendship. He made friends easily, thanks to his mesmerizing smiles and his lame-but-worked jokes. While I, in the other hand, just a simple girl. A very simple girl that love to laugh. A very simple girl who always LOL-ing everytime he made a joke, even the lamest ones.
One fine day, he asked me out. He said that that day was too good to waste. We went to watch movie and ended the day swinging in the park near school. He pushed the swing while in the top of that, I laugh out his joke. The day was perfect, till he confessed his feeling towards me.
“I LIKE YOU” he said loud.
I just giggled. I was a very simple girl who thinks that his ‘LIKE’ is just the same like the ‘LIKE’ in “I like lollipop and ice cream” or so. So I told him back, “I LIKE YOU TOO..” I said it loud too.
We giggled after that.
The days went on, weeks passed, and months passed. And eventually the Valentine day came.
Daesung and I passed the valentine day in the theme park.
I was in line for the fairish wheel while Daesung was getting us cotton candy when someone tapped my shoulder.
“Yongbae yah!” I cheered the person who was tapping my shoulder.
“Yo! What are you doing here?” he asked.
“Queuing for the ride of course! What are you doing?” I asked him a rhetorical question.
“Ditto! The different part is I’m all alone, while you’re with you beloved boy friend~~” he teased playfully, and his eyes completely closed.
“Boyfriend?” I asked him innocently. “I don’t have one… why do you think I came here with my boyfriend?” and I didn’t notice at all that Daesung over heard us.
“Uh? I don’t know.. maybe because it’s valentine day, and you’re here with a boy with funny smiles always on his lips all day, and you’re lining for the most romantic-decorated ride here..” he elaborated his thought.
“Oh! You mean Daesung?”
“Maybe..”
“Silly, he’s just.. Daesung ah! Palli wa!” I saw Daesung before I could finish my sentence. He handed me one of the cotton candy he bought. I didn’t notice his paler face.
“This is my good friend, Daesung” I grabbed Daesung’s arm and clung my hand there while I introduced him to Yongbae. “Daesung ah, this is Yongbae, my neighborhood friend.. ”
“Hi there” Yongbae offered his hand to shake, Daesung accepted it silently.
We finally got our turn to ride the wheel. The ride was too quiet when you had Daesung there. And Yongbae for the addition. Yes, we’re all 3 rode the wheel together.
And for the rest of the day, Daesung went silent.
“Daesung ah, gwaenchana?” I finally asked him, while he pushed my swing.
“um??” he answered nothing.
“Why were you so quiet back in the theme park?” he stopped the swing.
“Mel yah…” he called me my nick.
“hhhm??” I looked at the boy who is squatting front of me, while both of his hands held the rope of the swing.
“Who do you think I am?” he asked while he kept his head low.
“Hmmm?? What kind of question is that?”
“Mel yah… I already told you that I like you, didn’t i?” he was not lifting his head yet.
“Daesung ah.. I like you too.. I told you too, didn’t i?” I don’t really get what he is up to.
He sighed painfully, “you didn’t really know what was that mean, don’t you?” finally he lifted his head, his teary eyes snapping mine perfectly. I still could remember the shiver he transferred, it felt painfully guilt.
“Daesung ah…” I placed my hands over his hands.
“Mel yah… I meant this…” he got up and gave a peck in my right cheek.
To be honest, I felt nothing, no shivers, no butterflies in stomach, nor burning cheeks. Totally nothing, but guilty feeling. i never thought before that Daesung liked me, that kind of like. But, I didn’t, I didn’t like him the way he liked me. I liked him because he is Daesung, the boy with mesmerizing smiles. The boy who never failed cheered the class up, the boy who was and always everyones’ great friend. I like him like I like lollipop and ice cream.
He left me all alone in that park.
And after that, our friendship would never been the same..
He went to an all boys school.
His one sided love towards me, lead me to another complex I got.
I can’t stand someone who I felt nothing towards; have another feeling that considered into love.
Coz I couldn’t forget Daesung’s teary eyes.
I have to convince my self about Seung Hyun. I don’t want another Daesung in my life. I don’t want that painfully stabbing stare.
I have to ask him. Before anything just too late. Before I could hurt anyone.
“hey…!” someone’s hand swayed in front of my face. That was Seung Hyun’s.
“What!?” I asked him just conscious from dozing off.
“Forget it…” and he went to grab his backpack and threw the straps over his shoulder. “Aren’t you going home??”
“Oh, yeah...wait for me...” I grab my bag quickly and catch Seung Hyun up.
We walked in silence. Both of us seemed to be busy with our own thought. I didn’t know bout Seung Hyun, but in my mind now...chaos.
I thought about him, about Jiyong oppa, and somehow about Daesung.
What if he felt the same way like Daesung felt towards me 2 years ago?
What I’ve supposed to do?
What I have supposed to say?
How do I tell jiyong oppa?
But, what I have to tell to Jiyong Oppa anyway?
Why is Jiyong oppa not asking me to be his GF yet?
Do I like, lacking of something?
Is it because we haven’t had our kiss? Real kiss I mean, not like we did before, a peck at the side of my lips.
No, jiyong oppa is not that kind of guy? But what if he is?
Youngbae ever told me that physical contact is an important deal for male creature.
Aaarrrrgggh!!
I don’t care!
Eeeekk…
Wrong
I do care…
Ottoke!!!!
First thing to do = ask Seung Hyun about his feeling!
If he say ‘I like you’ as the way Daesung said it. I’ll give him explanation that I felt nothing towards him, nicely. And tell him that we will be best friend.. rite? Good plan…so far.
If he say ‘….’ Hhhmm. I not sure, what is the right respond if you were a boy, random girl asked you “What do you fell about me?” , but you have nothing special for her? Well, just pretend that if he’ve been asked that question, and he had nothing towards me he would say “Uh?” Or “You’re my friend”
I definitely feel relieved.
Eh? Will I? hhmmm.. sucha waste.
Ouh! Snap it brain!!
“Mel yah~~” he called me, eh? How could he know my nickname? No one at school ever called me with that name, except…
“Eh? You know my nick?” I asked him nonchalantly.
“Em” he answered, somehow our conversation went awkward, like one-line dialog.
“How?”
“Someone told me..”
“Oh.. who?”
“Someone you know..”
“Who?”
“Taeyang..”
“Who’s that?”
“you don’t know him?”
“never heard his name..”
“He told me that you’re his friend..”
“he is? I don’t have a friend named Taeyang… as I could remember”
“His real name is Yongbae..”
“Ah..him?” suddenly I remembered what I have to do.
“yeah, he’s your friend rite?”
“Do you like me Seunghyun?” I blurted out.
“Huh?”
A good sign, he said, “huh?” I made a pre-party expression in my mind, yey!
“Yes I like you, who doesn’t?” he finished his sentence easily, while I froze in my track.
What I have to say?? Brain, think! Quick!
“What are you doing, standing there…” I didn’t even realize that I was literally frozen; he was couple steps ahead already.
I gulped my bitter saliva.
Damn it, brain!! Why don’t you blabber like you always do??
Why now?
He took a couple more steps and bumped his ass into the park’s bench.
Eh? We’re already here?
So, walked me here?
Ouh brain, today was your slowest pace!
I took several steps catching him up and let my self sat beside him.
“Are you serious with that?” I asked him timidly.
“uoh? About what?” w.t.h this guy! I’m trembling coz this stupid question that I should ban my self for asking so here, but all he did is, forgetting everything.
I took a deep breath, “That ‘like’ thingy…” I made an apostrophe in the air. “You don’t mean it rite? Ehehe..” I let out an awkward laugh.
“About you? No, I’m serious. I joke no where bout that..” he answered firmly.
I gulped my saliva, again.
Here we go, plan A, execute!
Tell him that I don… that the h.ell is he doing rite now???
Damn it why is his face so close into mine?
My head switch it self into an autopilot mode, it’s shakily made a room, backing up tremblingly.
Yah! Seunghyun! What are you going to do??
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Yah! Seunghyun! What are you going to do?
I tilted my head more so I had an enough room for me to felt what I call comfortable.
I swear to god that now, I really want Seungri appeared from the middle of nowhere and start rambling about himself and his oh-so-outstanding dance squad. Cuz he’s the best for ruining a moment like this.
Please god.
At least make him call me.
Oh.em.gee
His head just came closer.
Seungri.
Please…
Save your nuna, or I’ll tell your psychotic fangirls about your childhood..
Just before I’m about to push Seunghyun off, someone called my name loudly, I could note the shocked and annoyed tone from that voice *in this case only* of heaven.
“Nuna!! How could you!!??” that’s my annoying stupid dongsaeng who’s once in my life time I find him so handsome and sexy, he is officially my hero. *please only apply that compliment in a certain situation only, like… now.*
“Oh Nuna! You didn’t!!” and there come his rambling, I stood up quickly, releasing my self from… well.. Seunghyun.
“I didn’t what?” I looked at him sternly, but I hope his got my thank you gaze. Seunghyun got his self up from the bench.
“You didn’t dating this guy over here! How could you be that popular among opposite sex! You’ve dated Kang Daesung, the best singer from last month competition, Taeyang, who is my hyung in dance squad that all girls had drooling their self just after saw his routine, then you’ve…” he didn’t finish his line because before he could doing so, I pinched his left cheek and pull it closer to me.
“Ahh ahhh nuna..Apa! arasso arasso..you’re so pretty..nuna stop it, nuna nomu yaeppo..Aaaw!” I let him rub his reddened cheek before I pinched him again, in his right cheek now.
“How could you accuse like that, huh?!!” I pinched him harder.
“Nuna..nuna..arasso..arasso, let me go..ah hyung don’t just stand there and giggling like her fanboy, help me would you?” he pleaded over Seunghyun, I was to relieved that I’m forget Seunghyun was still there, giggling over me and Seungri.
Just for your info, I’ve told you that I would never tell you my real Korean name, didn’t i? coz my family, esp my lovely grandma is a bunch of weird people, excluding me of course. She gave her grandchildren weird names. So I have disguise my self with my international name, Lee Amelie, if you read backward it still read Lee Amelie.. :D .do you guys get it? Pronounced Lee-Amel-Lee, rite? It still the same if you read it backwards.. like Seungri’s.. Lee-Seung-Lee, cute huh?
Oh, snap. Back to the topic.
“You guy are too funny… Seungri ah,, you shouldn’t said that to your nuna at the first place..” he said in one breath and back to his giggling.
These guys knew each other?
How?
Seungri is one year younger than me that made him a freshman here, and he already knew his senior and not even bother to called him Sunbae instead Hyung indicates that they were knew each other quite a while. Is he that popular? Cannot be!
“are you guys know each other?? How?” I asked the surprised, it not like I doubt my own brother’s popularity, but..how?
“He used to beat boxing and raping for our dance tempo, I told you bout it!” Seungri answered felt annoyed, not that he got annoyed whit the question, but well~ I still pinched him. I released him afterwards.
“You did?? I didn’t remember…” I averted my eyes to Seunghyun, “I don’t know that you’re a beat boxer and a rapist at the same time…” I had no idea why they went crazy over my comment. Both Seunghyun and Seungri clutched their stomach LOL-ing their heads off.
What so funny? I just called him beat boxer and..oh.me.gee!
I didn’t! I didn’t call him rapist!! Stupid!!!
Well the piano player called pianist, the guitar player called guitarist… that logic had fool me!
Now he thinks that I think he was someone who wanders around random neighbor hood and rape anybody there.
How clumsy I could get?
“I don’t rape..” he finally said between his gags.
A heat of embarrassment crept out around my cheek.. I was red till my ear.
“Mianhae, I meant rapper…”
“Hahahahahaha, nuna, you embarrassing me as your dongsaeng! Muahahahaha, hyung, she..” he didn’t finish his word, not because I shot him with deadly glare, but his phone vibrated, he picked up his phone inside his pocket, hit the green button and start speaking, “Yoboseyo?” what the heck! Why does his voice became deeper so suddenly?
“Ah, rite.. I’ll be there in 5 minutes, bye.” He finished his conversation via phone with someone god knows who in a zip, but that’s not the point, he spoke with weird tone, you know, that deep, manly, sexy tone.. ouh!! Incest incest!
He gently put his phone inside his pocket, acted so cool that don’t recognize him as my dongsaeng, he straighten up his figure, pop out his collar, put his two fingers in his lips, kiss them and did some kind of wave, cool wave..
“Bye nuna, I got something to do..” he said still in his cool act, he turned his back suavely and took off, just like that.
WHAT THE HECK!
I picked random pebble from the ground, I held my self from grabbing the brick there, and threw it square into his back head.
TUK!
“What the hell was that!!” he stroked his head, “Nuna! That was you?!!!”
“Muahahahahahahahahahahahaha!! That’s what you are supposed to be, not that kind of motji goon you’ve acted before!!”
“Aisshh! Can’t I be cool in front of my girls? Huh?” he still rubbed his head, it’s not a shocking news that that little guy over there a.k.a my brother IS a player.
“Anyway nuna, peace out!” he put his cool act again, and walked off. He took 3 steps before turned around and put his finger to the tip of his nose and point out it rite to my face. *a/n remember in sang sang plus special bigbang? When TOP reenact Seungri telling his fans to be quiet? Well, imagine that Seungri does that by himself*
“STOP BEING SO COOL AND SHOOOO!” I yelled him without knowing the meaning of his act.
Someone gagging beside me, oh yeah, Seunghyun still there, I couldn’t help my self but joining his gags.
And awkward silent covered us.
“ehe.ehe.heeh..” what a weird way to wrap out laughter.
Silent again
I cleared my throat, “Seunghyun ah~~” I felt a fake cheer in my voice, i.have.to.ask.him.now! I made a mental note in my head..
“how do you know Youngbae??” I blurted out. What the heck, it wasn’t the question I supposed to ask. Stupid brain!
“oh, well, back when we’re…” he started his story, I couldn hear him though, now in my brain, I made a list..
- He put our pict as his wallie
- He’s face ALWAYS came closer into mine where there were any chance
- He stumbled upon my image folder
- He called me GOOD LOOKING
- HE SAID THAT HE LIKES ME, and had no joke on that.
I think those were more than enough, he is officially likes me..
“…”
Damn this complex, why do I feel so guilty now?
An image of Daesung pop out from nowhere.
Ouh, what to do
What to do
WHAT THE HELL TO DO?!
Okay, calm down…
First, mmmm, what to do first?
Ah, ask Seunghyun once again, like cross check thingy..
“…so that’s how we met.” Seunghyun finished up his story.
“Yeah, that’s cool…” I responded randomly, I didn’t hear him anyway.
“What’ s cool? I told you that I met with Youngbae when I was prisoned in Guatemala for digging up Fuji Mountain to move it to Seoul, and Youngbae was the head of the most respected mafia from Hongkong, where have you been huh? ” he chuckled hard.
“Aha.ha.ha.hahaha” again an awkward laugh.
“Seunghyun ah, you didn’t really say the truth when I ask you whether you like me or not, did you?” I had my face stiffen, if I had mirror rite now, I’m pretty sure it became pale too.
He looked like taken back,
“…” we’re both in silence, I’m waiting for Seunghyun answer, while Seunghyun..i donk know what in his head.
“I didn’t..i said the truth..”finally he said some thing, his face now red, not for the nervousness or something but, from “MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!! Look at your face…”
He laughed at my face.
“…”
I made a mental kick to Seunghyun’s face, “huahahaha, look at your face..” he stop laughing, “Youngbae and Daesung is totally rite.”
“…” I felt like a pang in head, he tricked me? I don’t know what to feel, kinda mix of relieve coz he didn’t meant what he say, and mad coz he made me felt uneasy just now.
I made a mentally smack in his head.
“WHAT WAS THAT FOR!!” he stopped his laughter and now he hollered.
Little I realized, I smacked him like, for real.. =. =”
I smacked him again.
“that’s for playing with my feeling” I began to sob.
“Ouh? Mel yah, I didn’t mean..i..i.. I’m sorry, i..ottoke? don’t cry, please..” his voice shaking from worry.
I sobbed louder, “waaaaaa…”
It’s funny to witness his fast changing expression from –huahahahaha you stupid girl, I mocked you rite in your face- to –oh.em.gee don’t say that I made you cry coz some one might kill me-
“Shusshhh..please.. I’m a jerk okay, don’t cry, slap me, kick me, do whatever you want, but don’t cryyy…” I didn’t know this guy over here can be soooo..chicken?
His face became pale as he pleaded, “I’ll buy you ice cream, okay? Chocolate ice cream, cone! Stop..please..i might get killed..” I couldn’t help my self but turn my head away, coz he might see my puffy cheek as I held my gags.
But, yeah, I just couldn’t hold it anymore, puhlezeee.. when some one hot, tall, has beautiful and fierce eyes pleaded and begged in front of you, esp when you’re pretending to cry, just..funny.
“puhahahaha” there, I’ve got my revenge. I kept my head hung low and my hands in my stomach.
His face got its color again.
“that.was.not.funny.at.all.” suddenly his voice stiffen, I could feel seriousness in his tone, I stopped my gags, like a slow motion I finally find his eyes.
Just when our gaze met each other’s..
“puhahahahahahahahahaha!!” we’re just cracked up.
“you have to see your face just know…” I told him, still cracked up.
“Yeah, like you don’t your self!”
Wait, rite. What I did before he laughed at me, once again?
Ah! Yes!
I asked him whether he’s..
WAIT A SECOND!
That means, he..
“You don’t like me, don’t you??!!” it maybe sounds funny, but yeah.. I cheered.
“Tch, you’re the first who cheered over the fact that I’m not liking you” he scoffed.
I smiled ear to ear.
Okie, time to check my precious little note, yah brain! Did you hear that? I called you precious, so move faster! Or I’ll replace you with something giga Pentium.
- He put our pict as his wallie
- He’s face ALWAYS came closer into mine where there were any chance
- He stumbled upon my image folder
- He called me GOOD LOOKING
- HE SAID THAT HE LIKES ME
, andhad no joke on that.
“So, is it true?? You don’t like me, do you??” I convince him again, well, more to myself actually.
“Yes, I don’t like you like daesung did, but yes I like you as my friend, satisfied??”
Gooooooooooooooooood.
Rite. I think I’m gonna check numba 2.
Ok! Execute!
“…”
How?
D’oh! Brain! I surely will replace you with something giga Pentium! No? work faster then!
AHA!!
I got it! Good job brain.
I pat my own head with satisfaction, my brain did a good job..
I drew my self closer to him.
“Ehem!” I cleared my throat to catch his attention. Good, he is now looked at me.
I gulped my saliva before I made an eye contact to him and made my way closer to his face.
“…”
No reaction.
This time cloooooooossseeerr.. I even shut my eyes, I felt my face scrunching up, cloooserrr..
Jiyong oppa, im sorry. Not that I’m desperately want to lost my lipginity or what, but I have to convince my self.
Jiyong oppa, just don’t miss understand~~
Jiyong oppa, i..
I felt some thing rubbed against my nose.
“There, finally..”
Finally what?
He kissed me already?
I didn’t feel anything. I opened my eyes just to see him made a –what are you doing with that face- face.
“’it’s removed already, pull your head off… no need to thank..”
Can someone knock me into sense? Coz I’m not got it.
“wha..what??”
“I removed it already miss. Horrible-at-cooking-but-knows-how-to-make-deliciouso-muffins-and-doesn’t-know-that-the-blueberry-paste-still-plastered-on-her-nose.”
“…blueberry-paste-still-plastered-on-her-nose”
“…blueberry-paste-still-plastered-on-her-nose”
“…blueberry-paste-still-plastered-on-her-nose”
that 7 beautiful words clanged over and over again.
THAT’S IT!!
- He put our pict as his wallie
He’s face ALWAYS came closer into mine where there were any chance- He stumbled upon my image folder
- He called me GOOD LOOKING
- HE SAID THAT HE LIKES ME
, andhad no joke on that.
Sooo..hahahahahaa
Stupid brain, he just wanted to wipe the blueberry paste!!
Wait, means that, all the way from the class till here, I still have a nose with blueberry paste?
Great, just great!
I smiled ear to ear, putting aside that people might think that I was a stupid girl who thinks that blueberry paste is some sort of daily make up. Whatever~~
“why are you smiling so wide?” oh yeah, Seunghyun..
“Nothiiiing~~”
“You’re not making a note in your head, are you?”
“gasp.. are you read mind?”
“Nah! Seungri told me, you tend to make anything you want or have to do in your brain, I heard you called your brain stupid too”
“….” He really heard a lot about me, didn’t he?
“you..kinda..know me?” I asked uncertainly.
“well yeah, I know you, well enough that made me curious about you my self..” he beamed.
“how? Aside from Seungri and Youngbae..and~ your observation?” I’m just curious okay, isn’t that a normal reaction? Come one.. someone tall, smart, and coughHOTcough know you just too much when actually you just know him for about.. half semester..
“Daesung..” just a simple name that brings me the same chills over my spine for almost these 2 years.
I smiled and nodded, I wondering about him, is he been good? Is he forgave me?
“Yeah, well.. Daesung told me a lot, he is my bestfriend. I know that you and him were dating back then..” my heart just sank.
“is he..?”
“Don’t worry, he’s fine. He told me that it’s also his fault not telling you what he meant back than when he said he liked you”
“…” Daesung stabbing stare somewhat flashed in my mind.
“if it’s making you lighter, Daesung is in a stable relationship, with someone.. she is Park Ye Eun, I think that’s her name”
“…” I felt a little bit light headed.
A flash of smiling Daesung crossed my mind, and I didn’t bother to shrug it off, indeed, it brought a decent curve in my lips.
“and I know the complex that you had too.. you shouldn’t be.. get over it, that’s not good, not for you yourself, and your future..eh? what I should call them, you know, them? People who’ll confess to you, esp when you have no feeling for them..you’ll make your self easy to play if you don’t get over it soon..”
Bitter fact, eh? But he got the points.
I think it’s the time, time for me to shrug off the guilty feeling a.k.a stupid complex of mine, just like Seunghyun said..
I pulled out my phone from my pocket, little I noticed I haven’t make it home, so the screen was still in my images folder, with DaeHee’s face and mine smiling wide and starred back at me, that was the photo we took a week ago in her room.
I hit the home button, and push the scroll down button which reveal my contacts, I typed ‘D’
His name was below DaeHee’s.
I fiddled it a while, glance over Seunghyun just to saw him give me reassuring nod.
I smiled before proceed to do something that I supposed to do long time ago.
I punched the green button.
I could hear my heart as I brought my phone closer to my right ear.
“Yoboseyo..” I firmly said after the other line picked up my phone, “Daesung ah~”
I could feel my heart in my throat, I grabbed something to kept my strength *mentally*, it just happened to be Seunghyun’s wrist.
[mel yah?]
“Daesung ah~ have you been well?” I tightened my hand on Seunghyun’s arm.
[yes, what bout you? It’s been along time..]
I smiled, “Daesung ah~ yeah..it’s 2 years already?”
[almost..so, how’re you doing?]
“Fine..emmmmhh”
[listen this Mel yah, why do tiger looking at the closet?]
“huh? He wants to pee??”
[wrong! He looking for pooh, hahahaha]
I laughed along with him, I never think before, he could break any icy situation, that easy, that’s the DAESUNG I knew.
“hahaha, daesung ah, you’re still the same” I paused, took a deep breath, “Daesung ah, I..I..I’m sorry..” I felt my eyes sting
[giggled. What for? Not liking me back, back then?]
You hit me square Daesung!
[Mel yah~ gwaenchana, you were never be the fault one from the beginning..]
“daesung ah~”
[Just get over it, don’t let your guilty feeling eats you up. I know you too well..]
“Gomawo Daesung ah~” I could feel a tear threaten to fall.
[we’re remain as a friend, aren’t we? It’s so relieving having you back as my friend mel yah~]
There… a tear really made its way to escape.
[I should call you earlier.. it’s been 2 years..i’m sorry for leaving you with that guilty feeling.. I couldn’t help my self from being a coward]
[but I updated my self about you, credits to Seungri… I know you’re going out with Jiyong hyung..]
Gasp.. am I a sort of entertainer or what, why is the –Lee Amelie dating Kwon Jyong- news seemed to be known all over the –world? Eh?
Well, we’re not even date..or yes?
[and, probably now you’re with Seunghyun hyung]
My jaw dropped, is he spying on me? With a huge telescope like one in the WANTED movie?
[he said he will confess to you, don’t fall for him tough, he’s testing your complex, he said that, he will some how cure that complex..]
[I believe all he wants is a contact of this girl]
“what? How dare..why? who?”
[you’re still the same Mel yah, your emotions are still unpredictable..*giggle*]
I sent a glare to Seunghyun, I release my grip on his wrist, Senghyun made a –what?- face.
“Daesung ah~ its so relieving having you back, as my friend, I’ve got something to do, I’ll hung up, key? Make sure to introduce Park Ye Eun girl, okey? Bye chingu ya~”
In a second after I hang up the phone, everything was sooooooo clear rite now, slowly pieces of my puzzle made their way in my mind.
Where’s my list..oh here..
- He put our pict as his wallie
He’s face ALWAYS came closer into mine where there were any chance- He stumbled upon my image folder
- He called me GOOD LOOKING
- HE SAID THAT HE LIKES ME
, andhad no joke on that.
Point number 5. The fact is, he’s just getting my nerve by playing with my complex, way to go mr. Choi
Point number 2. He’s not going to kiss me or what, he’s just trying to wipe the stupid stain of blueberry paste, thanks to my clumsiness.
Mental note: don’t thinking too much, be more- easy going-, will you??
Point number 1: I swear to god I don’t know why
Point number 3: he was not looking for my photos, but…
I hit my home button oh my phone, held it till the window that haven’t been closed popped out. I scrolled down the Image folder icon.
There lied the answer.
Point number 4: *called back the incident*
“hhhmm.. I just notice that with that small lips, pointy nose and V line jaw made you rrr, good looking?”
I was too engrossed with the ‘good looking’, and forgot that.. small lips, pointy nose, v line jaw, were NOT MY FEATURE.
Good job brain, I’ll never call you stupid ever again, I know your just too smart, just..slow.
I shot him another glare.
“what?” he puzzled out.
“I’ll get my revenge!!”
“huh?” just wait Seunghyun!
I hit my home button once again, scroll onto contact list, typed ‘D’, and hit the green button after it.
“yoboseyo?” I looked into Seunghyun eyes with –you’ll get what you deserve- glare.
“what??!” he shrug his shoulder
“Daehee ah~”
His eyes bulging out, I could see a pinkish shade in his cheek, cuuute~.
No~ I supposed to take revenge, duh!
[wae?]
“I have some one who’d LOVE to talk to you, indeed, he put his life in danger just to have your contact, hold on”
I quickly shoved my phone to Seunghyun who looked like.. I didn’t know how to describe it.
“yo..bo..se..yo??” hahahahaha too cute, is he, trembling?
“my name is TOP, call me TOP”
“ehem” he cleared his throat to compose his courage.
“HIMYNAMEIS TOPANDI’MYOURFRIEND’SFRIENDNICETOMEETYOU”
What the heck?
Muahahahahaha, just too cutee~
He mumbled out that loudly, loud enough to make Daehee drew his hand away from her ear, I believe.
After that he shoved back my phone and found that his shoes seemed so interesting.
“hahahahaha. Daehee yah~”
[who the hell was that!! He sounds, uh?]
“he’s my friend, HE LIKES YOU! And he’welafjrg vinifgn” I purposely said HE LIKES YOU-part loudly, that made Seunghyun jolted and quickly grabbed my mouth. His eyes filled with worry yet embarrassed look.
[what?]
“hmlpyehndafa…” I bit him, “I’ll call you later!”
[he better be hot!]
Well, she just..coughpervertcough.
“WHAT THE HELL WAS THAT!??” he hollered
“WHAT THE HELL WAS THAT!!!” I screamed back
“Don’t copy me!”
“Don’t copy me!”
“You!!” he pointed out his finger square to my face
“You!!” I did the same act as him.
“Aish!! Jinjja!!!” he stood up furiously, ran his fingers trough his hair, and sit again.
I gave him my biggest smile and stuck out my first and second fingers made a V sign.
“I’ve got my revenge.. thanks Seunghyun ah~, no I mean, Thanks Seunghyun oppa.. you’re right, this complex was indeed garrotting..” I smiled to him.
He smiled to, “You called me oppa?”
“Yes, OPPA..” I trailed the ‘oppa’.
“You’re now addressing someone other than jiyong oppa? Is that mean, I am your back up boyfriend?” my jaw just dropped, how can he know?
“Kwon Jiyong sunbae..” I called him out, we’re queuing for the movie ticket, “I think watchin horror isn’t a good thing..”
“Why are you still call me sunbae?” his eyebrows furrowed, “We had our..” his cheeks turned pink, mine too. “Popo..” true, last time we’re out, he kissed my left cheek after he called me cute when blushing, made me blush more.
“Ouh??” I just have no guts to call him oppa, we’re not officially a couple after all, “eng.. just because.. ouh?”
“What?” he brought his face closer.
“Eung, keunyang.. eung..” I’m sure enough my face was all red.
“What??” what a persistent person he is, and why the hell he brought his face more closer??
“Ouh..” I couldn’t think any good answer, and all I could do was..cursing at my brain for being so slow.
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